Rav Mendel of Kotzk
Faith is a hard thing. I want to have faith, but if I have faith I have to give up control. I have to accept that I have no control except that I have faith. Control is a hard word too, its a hard thing to accept that we are all so controlling. I have been seeing lately the ways I try to control my world (consciously and unconsciously) and have seen the opposite of my intensions coming to life. If I have faith and love and ask with an open heart my Heavenly Parents for the things I need I will get them. Only with good intensions and faith. I only pray that I can continue to see the ways I try to control my world so that I can have faith and gain peace. One of my ways to overcome my control is for me to Speak My Truth. What a scary thing to do, but just assuming that people know me and understand me really puts a lot of pressure on everyone else but me. I ask for Faith that I will be able to speak my Truth in the moments that I need to with peace and be able to speak from my heart.
Love you all!